Journal

Painting mandalas is a very healing process. I’ve always said it’s brain training as requires you to be Present! You cannot be distracted by your mind if you are focused and Present on painting a mandala.

There was an extremely challenging day painting this one. My mind was extremely distracted so I began painting to try and focus myself in the Now.

When I am in the Now I am able to witness my mind and just observe it without being involved. I can tell you that when I do this all kinds of wisdom leaks through.

I was witnessing many thoughts about not being good enough. If I am honest my thoughts were really bad about myself. I’m so grateful that Presence enabled me to see the stories and I was able to move into the feeling more.

Allowing myself to feel not good enough. Allowing that to move through me without a narrative of why, who, where did this feeling come from. I just sat with it for most of the day. Acknowledging the feeling and releasing resistance of not wanting to feel it.

That’s where all the pain is. In the resistance of not wanting to feel or to experience something unpleasant. I don’t think that method works though because the reality is that pain is here sometimes and unpleasant things happen sometimes. I believe we all need tools to deal with that.

Acceptance is huge. Not like I’m agreeing but like I’m acknowledging that this is here or happening. Then I can do something different from this space. All possibilities emerge.

So this is my intention moving forward with this current work in progress. Practicing acceptance and observing the new possibilities emerge.

I will be teaching a mandala painting workshop in March for those in the Fayetteville, North Carolina area! Spaces are limited so book early at https://www.ourpsychicart.com/psychic-art-workshops